Tuesday, April 30, 2013

In The Wilderness With The Lord

Selepas 10 tahun, ehh...1 tahun lebih bekerja, saya kian masuk lebih mendalam dalam dunia yang penuh misteri ini. (Teruk betul BM ku ni...hahahaha...).

My life now, how can i describe it. It's just normal. I go to work, go back home. At home i watch movies and anime in my laptop. Sometimes going out with friend. Since i dont have any commitment so far, i feel like my life is pointless, lifeless. Sometimes i ask myself, why is it that i feel alone and lifeless eventhough i have a Big God up there. Another mystery in my life yet to be revealed.

I'm (once again) in the point of my life where i dont know what to do or what i want. Being retarded for awhile...hehe...A thought came up to me that maybe its time for me to discern on whatever God wants me to do in life and yea, it's actually a good time for me to serve Him alone, as a Lone Ranger! I have plenty of quiet time now. 

One thing i know for sure, that He already plan something for me and He is directing my life to the path He has chosen. Yes, i believe in that. Eventhough i come to the point of life where i may not see His clear plans, i will not give up. This is my journey in the desert. Wandering for 40 years, that's a long long time (ehhhhh, what am i talking about here...haha..). Though i'm seeing desert everyday, i know for sure that one day if i don't give up, i will arrive at the place where God has promised to me. Yes, He will provide me with everything i need like syampu, shaver, icecream and all the food i can eat. haha.

For forty years You sustained them in the wilderness; they lacked nothing, their clothes did not wear out nor did their feet become swollen. ~ Nehemiah 9:21 

Let this song express my feelings right now.

Hatiku Percaya ~ Edward Chen

See ya'll and God bless.

Thursday, April 18, 2013

My Godly Given Job

I would like to share my story of how God gave me a job as a Nutritionist in ABC Company (ohh, that is not the real name of the company, have to censor it, just incase...hehe). He is indeed an amazing God. My story may not be the same as others as the way God works in each one of us is very unique in His own way, yet let me boast about His amazing kindness to me.

Let me bring you back to 2011, it was in the middle of June where i had finished my Final Year Project (FYP) as a Final Year Student of Food Science and Nutrition. I finally manage to finish my 4 years study and i was back in my hometown, Kuching. I was relieved actually because i did have some difficulties completing my FYP but by God's Grace and Mighty Help, i was able to go through with it ( i seriously mean it, no kidding man, wonders did happened, fuhhh. Thank God its over.)

I was not planning on getting any long "holidays" for myself after that 4 great and amazing years of study. So 1 week after i returned to Kuching, i finally manage to get myself a temporary job as a cashier in Ngiukee Departmental Store with my friend Jessie whom i believe is a God sent friend. I was really happy working there and had no worries about my future job, because deep down in my heart i know God has already plan something great for me. So due to that, i enjoyed myself in Ngiukee without any worries of the future.

For I know the plans I have for you, declares The Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future ~ Jeremiah 29:11

Two months (plus plus) had past and i havn't applied for any jobs related to my Degree. I was so confident in my heart that God has already "reserved" a good job for me. However one night, when i was having dinner with friends, Jessie and Dannison, at an "open air" hawker stalls (101 food court), i met my coursemate, Sharon. Had a good conversation with her and surprise to know that she got a job as a Nutritionist in small company. That information really had my heart sank deep down the deepest ocean. It made me started to worry about my future carrier. I wasn't planning on staying in Ngiukee as a cashier for a long time yet i'm not doing anything to get a better job. On my way driving back home, i was litterally shouting in my car, calling Jesus! I was asking help from Him. I can't help it, with this little faith that i have, i was worrying so much. My soul was crying out! ( ohh this part, very hard to explain.)

Starting from that night onwards, i keep on talking to God about my future carrier. Almost every night my heart shouts out His Name, "JESUS". I started to apply for jobs on the internet and I managed to get an interview for Nutritionist post in Watsons. The interview was at Miri, so i used bus and the travel took 14 hours of journey. I was all alone, and this was my first job interview. Was a bit nervous but i know God was with me. Reaching there, i had the opportunity to had lunch with my auntie at her house. She lived in a small cute house. She even prayed and assured that God will help me. Another awesome thing happened is that i saw a Kenyalang, a very rare bird at the back of my auntie's house (I say that because you can only find that at museums as it is very very rare and about to extinct). Had the interview with the Retail Manager, and right at that moment, i know that i won't get the job. He offered me the Store Manger position instead but i declined (knowing for sure that it is not for me). I reflected a lot during the journey, learned and experience so much in those two days journey. It was as if God purposely gave me the experience as a personal "retreat" for me.

I finally decided to quit my job as a cashier in Ngiukee because i felt that it's going to be very hard for me to stay there and trying to find a new job at the same time. So i stayed at home, eat and sleep :) . One day, when i was talking to God, i remembered about the story of my friend in Kota Kinabalu, Sabah, Anne, how she got her current job. She listed down her job criteria that she wants and ask for it in details from God. Guess what. She really get the job that she wanted based on the criteria that she asked for.  At that moment after i remembered this, i ask God in details about the job that i wanted.

The criteria that i asked for:-
1. Working in Kuching (my hometown)
2. As a nutritionist (using my degree)
3. A degree Salary 

That was it. Somehow when i prayed this, i had a confident feeling, but i don't know how to describe it. As usual after i prayed this, there was no angel singing, no heavenly light, nor an earthquake happened. :) 1 or 2 days after i prayed this, i received a call from ABC Company calling me for an interview. I was really surprise at this! I don't even know that company. I even thought it was from Nestle.

And we are confident that He hears us whenever we ask for anything that pleases Him. And since we know He hears us when we make our request, we also know that He will give us what we ask for. ~ 1 John 5:14

The interview went well and i have been working in this Company for 1 year (plus plus) since 1st September 2011 as a Nutritionist. I was really blessed with this job and i even started working here before i graduated and received my Degree Certificate. This job was given to me by God and He gave it knowing that this is the best for me at the moment. I don't even deserved this job but He made it possible. He is Awesome and Great! Powerful and Mighty! My Alpha and Omega! My Hope and Savior.

This was what God had done to me. Many have asked for a job from God and yet haven't got one, which is true. God works in a mysterious way that we humans can't fully understand. One things for sure, we must be brave enough to let His Spirit guide us on a quest which He has specially planned for each and everyone of us. God wants us to be happy. That is true, He really wants us to be happy but bear in mind. The real Happiness that He wants to give is The Everlasting Happiness that we cannot find here on Earth but only through Him, with Him and in Him who reigns forever. Amen.