Friday, February 14, 2014

Rooted And Built Up in Jesus

When i was still a student, i joined Catholic Youth groups (CSG, Lifefire and Upper Room). Whenever i have difficulties in life, when i need Jesus, these groups really help me alot. They have weekly gatherings which i can go to, to worship God with them. There i have friends who supported me in prayer. I had places to go when i need the Eucharist EVERYDAY. Yes, just to go to the Daily Mass, i would use my campus bus to go to the main gate of UMS and walk outside of my university to the nearest bus stop, to go to Church. Finish attending the daily Mass, i would use bas back, and from outside UMS, i would walk back to my hostel since by that time there won't be any campus bus at service. During weekend i would go to Church and have my confession first before i go attend the service Mass. 

Jesus said to them, "I am the Bread of Life; whoever comes to me will never hunger, and whoever believes in me will never thirst." ~ John 6:35

Faith was available everywhere. i felt closer to God day by day. It was easy to maintain my faith there, with all these around, i just need to have my own effort on getting it. It was easy then than now. Life is so much harder now. I've posted about working in Company ABC before. Well, i haven't updated my working life yet, but for your information,  i'm now working in the Health Ministry and i'm posted in a Clinic very far in a rural area (Rural Z), serving the locals there. Since i've arrived here in Rural Z, for the first time in my life, i feel very very far from God. I have never felt so empty and so dark in my life before. God was there but the walls that i built was too thick. 

With my faith below negative Zero, i felt so helpless. Life was hard. I'm already used to the life where God always help and guide me in all things. Of course this was what i've asked, to work far from my hometown, to serve the people of God using the gifts which God has given me. But i never thought that it was this hard. Challenges came, yeah, it wasn't easy to handle. I know God was watching me all the time, but it seemed very hard to reach Him. I'm not a theologian, so i can't explain it. What i know is that, my sins and lack of faith has made it very hard to reach my God, eventhough He was near.

I know, i can't live without Him. Now i really-really know that. His love is all that i need. I need Him to give me life, to guide me along this path which i'm in. Again for the very first time, back to square one, struggling to break the walls which i built myself. I know and i believe He will be with me until the end of time. Yesterday He said in this verse to me, "Wait for the Lord; be strong, and let your heart take courage, wait for the Lord! ~ Psalms 27:14. Yes i will and i will not let myself fall deeper. He is My God! I claim Love and Faith In Jesus Name! 

"So then, just as you received Christ Jesus as Lord, continue to live in Him, rooted and built up in Him, strengthened in the faith as you were taught, and overflowing with thankfulness." ~ Colossians 2:6-7

If you have catholic groups, be active! Always give all out to Him! Attend Weekly Mass. Go to Daily Mass if you can. All these can really help you stay closer to God besides your own private time with God! Do whatever it takes to be closer with Him. When we love some someone, we would want that person to love us back. It goes the same with God, He really wants us to love Him back. Well, He died for us. That's how much He would go to to get our love back. Today is Valentine's Day, and i would like to wish Daddy God, happy Valentine's Day because He is my no. 1 lover! 

God bless you. :)

Tuesday, January 14, 2014

Jesus It is You

I love God, He made me feel that i'm special. He never leaves me eventhough i try to rebel against Him. When I fall and run away from Him, He waits for me faithfully. He really is my true best friend. 

No one will be able to stand up against you all the days of your life. As I was with Moses, so I will be with you; I will never leave you nor forsake you. ~ Joshua 1:5

I really love You God. Thank You for loving me as i am. Thank You for never leaving me. You are always there for me when i need You. When no one comes to my aid/help, You, You, You, You, YOU ARE THERE. You always wait for me to call out Your Name. You are always there for me. ALWAYS. I love You God. I really do. I Love You. And i'm sorry for i don't love You perfectly. I miss You. I love You. I want You! God, thank you for the presence, the blessings which you always give me. Thank you for making me worthy to talk to You, to be with You. 

Mighty Saviour, i surrender all things, things which i am not capable to handle, i leave and surrender it to You. Take care of me. I know You are watching over me all the time. I know it! How can You hide Your presence God, when i can see You in all things. Your light is too bright to be hidden. Mighty God, guide me, guide me, guide me...Sometimes I really feel that i'm stupid because i can't handle things which other people can. I always need You. I always need You to help, to guide me. I can't do these things without Your help or Your strength. 

Jesus It Is You ~ by True Worshippers (Favor Album)

Father, it is You! It is You...It Is You Jesus who is always there for me. Mighty Lord. Saviour. Thank You. 

Dengan Kuasa Roh Kudus Mu, biarlah aku rendah di mata dunia, tetapi dekat di hatiMu. Dalam Nama Yesus Kristus, Tuhanku, Allahku....I love You.