Few weeks ago, i had a weekend away to a very meaningful place in my life. A holiday, which i really need. I went to Kota Kinabalu, Sabah, just for the weekend (a place where i took my bachelor degree and where my faith grows so much). God is indeed a Great Planner. He scheduled a Leadership Seminar for me. It was two days ( saturday and sunday ) and on sunday night, He arrange for me to go to Upper Room (Young and Adult Working Youth Prayer Group), prayer meeting. (seriously, i didnt planned all of that, i just planned to go to Kota Kinabalu to relax) Haihh. God is awesome.
God really works wonders in my life. I've learn and experienced so much during my weekend away but i'm not going to talk about it in details. During this weekend away, God always reminded me, Who He is in my life. At the Leader Seminar and also the prayer meeting, during praise and worship and the sessions, they will always let you think and declare who God is in your life.
The disciples went and woke Him, saying, "Master, Master, we're going to drown". He got up and rebuked the wind and the ragging waters: the storm subsided, and all was calm. ~ Luke 8:24
My life is a total mess right now. Yup, heavy storm and to the point that i don't really know what to do. I still have my faith, shaken maybe by the storm, and that is when God whispers to me with a question, Who is He in my mess up life right now?
During all those good days, it's so easy to praise God and declare how good He really is but when the storm comes, sometimess i just forgot to let and allow God to be Who He is. I'm in the state of my life that i feel so much pain and hurt. I've never felt this much pain before. Oh yeah! It feels good. No..haha.
The Lord is my Shepherd, i have everything i need. ~ Psalms 23:1
Even with all of that has happened, how can i forgot WHO GOD IS? I can never, and will not let that happen. He is always with me ever since i was born. I can always know His presence. HE NEVER LEAVES ME! HOW CAN YOU SAY HE IS NOT THERE WITH YOU! HE MAY NOT DO ANYTHING THAT YOU EXPECT HIM TO DO, TADAAAAA SHOW HIMSELF INFRONT OF YOU, BUT HE IS THERE! YOU BELIEVE HIM OR NOT, HE IS STILL GOD! AND HE IS STILL THERE! HE NEVER LEAVES YOU!
AND SO TO MY PROBLEMS RIGHT NOW, GOD IS MY SHEPHARD, MY FATHER, YOU BETTER RUN, COZ HE IS COMING FOR YOU! Heeeeeee :p
So Who Is He in my total mess up life right now? HE IS MY STORM CALMER! The One that is always there for me. The One that is so excited whenever i call out to Him.
He showed me a very beautiful rainbow. I've never seen such beautiful rainbow in my life, it was a complete one. I can see where it starts and where it ends. It was so near that i can actually go to where the foot of the rainbow is and there is a whisper in my heart that He wants me to know that He will never let me feel this kind of hurt again. He will make things new again for me.
I have faith in You. It is not strong, but Your Love is. Please provide me with more faith Lord. Bless those who hurt me and those whom i hurt. May it be not according to my will, but Your will be done. Spirit come and never let me go...