In The Wilderness With The Lord

Selepas 10 tahun, ehh...1 tahun lebih bekerja, saya kian masuk lebih mendalam dalam dunia yang penuh misteri ini. (Teruk betul BM ku ni...hahahaha...).

My life now, how can i describe it. It's just normal. I go to work, go back home. At home i watch movies and anime in my laptop. Sometimes going out with friend. Since i dont have any commitment so far, i feel like my life is pointless, lifeless. Sometimes i ask myself, why is it that i feel alone and lifeless eventhough i have a Big God up there. Another mystery in my life yet to be revealed.

I'm (once again) in the point of my life where i dont know what to do or what i want. Being retarded for awhile...hehe...A thought came up to me that maybe its time for me to discern on whatever God wants me to do in life and yea, it's actually a good time for me to serve Him alone, as a Lone Ranger! I have plenty of quiet time now. 

One thing i know for sure, that He already plan something for me and He is directing my life to the path He has chosen. Yes, i believe in that. Eventhough i come to the point of life where i may not see His clear plans, i will not give up. This is my journey in the desert. Wandering for 40 years, that's a long long time (ehhhhh, what am i talking about here...haha..). Though i'm seeing desert everyday, i know for sure that one day if i don't give up, i will arrive at the place where God has promised to me. Yes, He will provide me with everything i need like syampu, shaver, icecream and all the food i can eat. haha.

For forty years You sustained them in the wilderness; they lacked nothing, their clothes did not wear out nor did their feet become swollen. ~ Nehemiah 9:21 

Let this song express my feelings right now.

Hatiku Percaya ~ Edward Chen

See ya'll and God bless.

My Godly Given Job

I would like to share my story of how God gave me a job as a Nutritionist in ABC Company (ohh, that is not the real name of the company, have to censor it, just incase...hehe). He is indeed an amazing God. My story may not be the same as others as the way God works in each one of us is very unique in His own way, yet let me boast about His amazing kindness to me.

Let me bring you back to 2011, it was in the middle of June where i had finished my Final Year Project (FYP) as a Final Year Student of Food Science and Nutrition. I finally manage to finish my 4 years study and i was back in my hometown, Kuching. I was relieved actually because i did have some difficulties completing my FYP but by God's Grace and Mighty Help, i was able to go through with it ( i seriously mean it, no kidding man, wonders did happened, fuhhh. Thank God its over.)

I was not planning on getting any long "holidays" for myself after that 4 great and amazing years of study. So 1 week after i returned to Kuching, i finally manage to get myself a temporary job as a cashier in Ngiukee Departmental Store with my friend Jessie whom i believe is a God sent friend. I was really happy working there and had no worries about my future job, because deep down in my heart i know God has already plan something great for me. So due to that, i enjoyed myself in Ngiukee without any worries of the future.

For I know the plans I have for you, declares The Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future ~ Jeremiah 29:11

Two months (plus plus) had past and i havn't applied for any jobs related to my Degree. I was so confident in my heart that God has already "reserved" a good job for me. However one night, when i was having dinner with friends, Jessie and Dannison, at an "open air" hawker stalls (101 food court), i met my coursemate, Sharon. Had a good conversation with her and surprise to know that she got a job as a Nutritionist in small company. That information really had my heart sank deep down the deepest ocean. It made me started to worry about my future carrier. I wasn't planning on staying in Ngiukee as a cashier for a long time yet i'm not doing anything to get a better job. On my way driving back home, i was litterally shouting in my car, calling Jesus! I was asking help from Him. I can't help it, with this little faith that i have, i was worrying so much. My soul was crying out! ( ohh this part, very hard to explain.)

Starting from that night onwards, i keep on talking to God about my future carrier. Almost every night my heart shouts out His Name, "JESUS". I started to apply for jobs on the internet and I managed to get an interview for Nutritionist post in Watsons. The interview was at Miri, so i used bus and the travel took 14 hours of journey. I was all alone, and this was my first job interview. Was a bit nervous but i know God was with me. Reaching there, i had the opportunity to had lunch with my auntie at her house. She lived in a small cute house. She even prayed and assured that God will help me. Another awesome thing happened is that i saw a Kenyalang, a very rare bird at the back of my auntie's house (I say that because you can only find that at museums as it is very very rare and about to extinct). Had the interview with the Retail Manager, and right at that moment, i know that i won't get the job. He offered me the Store Manger position instead but i declined (knowing for sure that it is not for me). I reflected a lot during the journey, learned and experience so much in those two days journey. It was as if God purposely gave me the experience as a personal "retreat" for me.

I finally decided to quit my job as a cashier in Ngiukee because i felt that it's going to be very hard for me to stay there and trying to find a new job at the same time. So i stayed at home, eat and sleep :) . One day, when i was talking to God, i remembered about the story of my friend in Kota Kinabalu, Sabah, Anne, how she got her current job. She listed down her job criteria that she wants and ask for it in details from God. Guess what. She really get the job that she wanted based on the criteria that she asked for.  At that moment after i remembered this, i ask God in details about the job that i wanted.

The criteria that i asked for:-

1. Working in Kuching (my hometown)

2. As a nutritionist (using my degree)

3. A degree Salary 

That was it. Somehow when i prayed this, i had a confident feeling, but i don't know how to describe it. As usual after i prayed this, there was no angel singing, no heavenly light, nor an earthquake happened. :) 1 or 2 days after i prayed this, i received a call from ABC Company calling me for an interview. I was really surprise at this! I don't even know that company. I even thought it was from Nestle.

And we are confident that He hears us whenever we ask for anything that pleases Him. And since we know He hears us when we make our request, we also know that He will give us what we ask for. ~ 1 John 5:14

The interview went well and i have been working in this Company for 1 year (plus plus) since 1st September 2011 as a Nutritionist. I was really blessed with this job and i even started working here before i graduated and received my Degree Certificate. This job was given to me by God and He gave it knowing that this is the best for me at the moment. I don't even deserved this job but He made it possible. He is Awesome and Great! Powerful and Mighty! My Alpha and Omega! My Hope and Savior.

This was what God had done to me. Many have asked for a job from God and yet haven't got one, which is true. God works in a mysterious way that we humans can't fully understand. One things for sure, we must be brave enough to let His Spirit guide us on a quest which He has specially planned for each and everyone of us. God wants us to be happy. That is true, He really wants us to be happy but bear in mind. The real Happiness that He wants to give is The Everlasting Happiness that we cannot find here on Earth but only through Him, with Him and in Him who reigns forever. Amen.

Renew My Strength

These past few weeks has been very awesome. Full of surprises! Last 2 week, a friend of mine from Sabah (The land below the wind), Val, contacted me, telling me that she had received a call from a company in Kuching for an interview. That was on friday, 7th September. She came on the following week, on Wednesday, 12 September. Without any plans, she just walk by faith to Kuching, or better to say, fly by faith to Kuching using Airasia plane! hahaha.

For we walk by faith and not by sight. ~ 2 Corinthians 5:7

Ya, Who can know, that Jesus was only using this reason as an excuse for her to come to Kuching for His awesome plan! Ya indeed. Not only i met her a very close friend of mine who walk with me in faith during my study last time, but another friend of the two of us, Pat, who is working in Miri, were having a job training in Kuching! (what a good excuse to bring her also to Kuching) Is this a coincidence? The three of us were friends when we were in UMS and we went for the same catholic group, Lifefire! For your information, its been 1 year since we left UMS and graduated. Since then, we all have our own troubles and experience, met together in one place to share and just have a counselling session with God.

The Spirit of God just fills the place with good things. Just to let you know that my spirit were dry. I need my cups to be filled. God just knows the right time to fill my cup. Not only mine, but my friends, Pat and Val. Too much story within these two weeks. Maybe ill write another post about one of it. Well, maybe when im not lazy. hehe...

" but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. ." ~ Isaiah 40:31 

What i want to say here is that, nothing is imposible for HIM! He brought me friends from Sabah, and Miri just to fill my cup and encourage and give me strength to raise up and once again, bring praises to HIM who gives abundantly. Jesus loves us, Pat, Val, me and you whoever you are...hahahaha...Nothing is imposible for Him. Have hope in Him! Wait patiently! For His help comes at the right and perfect time!

He is your Way, your Truth and your Life! Mine too...

God Loves Simple Prayers

And when you pray, do not keep on babbling like pagans, for they think they will be heard because of their many words. ~ Matthew 6:7

Part 1

On 26th May 2012, afternoon at 12pm, I was looking for a place to park my car in the Boelevard Shopping Mall carpark. However, the place was full, well its Saturday, what do you expect. I just keep on driving, hoping to get a parking space. It lasted for half an hour!!! (ya, i know i'm stubburn guy). Suddenly...jeng...jeng...jeng...i felt so lazy to wait anymore and so i prayed, "God please give me a place to park and a good one. Amen". 

Tadaaaa!!! To my amazement (actually surprise is a better word) just as i finish saying that, 2 meters infront was a car going out and it was opposite the escalator entrance to the mall. Wow..right? Well, its God that we're talking about here. It's a small matter to Him. While praising God, that was the time that these words came out, "God who created Heaven and Earth knows our needs and will provide, but sometimes He's just waiting for us to ask."

Ya, He never fails to make me amazed. He is just full of surprises. ") End of Part 1.

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Part 2

On the 25th May 2012, around 10.30am, i was sending my friend Chil to CIMB bank in Padungan. I dropped her off in front of the bank and i went on to look for a parking space. The parking space in front of the bank seems to be fully parked. There is a car in front of me (car A) and he was lucky (i'll just assume the driver was a he, or maybe it was doraemon or Goku who drive it, well, sailormoon also can) anyway, ya he was lucky because a lady just came out from the bank and went to her car B which is infront of the car A. So lucky of him. He straight away turn on his car signal light which is a sign saying, "This parking space is mine! Muahahaha!!!". 

Oh Wow! beautiful drawing! 

It was very hard to find a parking space over there (well, that was what i thought until later on when i went back i saw lotttsss of parking space at the back, alright not funny). There was no more chance that ill get a parking space infront of the bank. Few minutes have pass yet Car B is still not moving, neither was the car engine started. Furious maybe, Car A hons his car, yet nothing happens. I dont really bother about them, yet i remembered the story of Part 1 above and so i prayed the same prayer. At first i don't feel like asking God's help. It was very a small matter. Why should i trouble Him? He has many other important things to do right. Yet He has taught me to rely on Him even to the smallest thing. 

Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding ~ Proverbs 3:5

Just as i finish praying that, the car infront of me which is Car A, obviously cannot wait any longer, drove his car to look for other parking space. As soon as Car A drove away, 1 second after that Car B reverse her car and ready to go home! I was shocked and happy at the same time. wohooo! My turn to turn on my car signal light indicating ("This parking space is mine!  Muahahaha!!!") I mean, amazing isn't it our GOD! He reserves that parking space for me!! I feel so touched! Indeed eventhough it was a small favour to ask, He still cares. Even in the smallest thing...ask... Rely on Him not only when your problems are big, but when it is small, tell Him about it. Remember Him at all times, Big or Small. Everything that concers you, matters to Him, because He loves you, me, everyone!

For the LORD is good and His Love endures forever; His faithfulness continues through all generations. ~ Psalms 100:5

I'm Back!!!

Wow! Its been a year plus plusss since my last post. I never thought i would continue writing again in my blog. (Is this considered as "writing" or shud i say "typing"). Hehehe. Well, let me tell you a short story on how i was "REVIVED" to bloging again.

On a wonderful day, a beautiful friend of mine from Sabah, Debbie Rosalind, sms/text me, saying that she's been sharing something in her blog (Oh ya, you should read her blog. fuhhh, basically what i can say is that she writes beautiful love stories!) and fushhhh, suddenly she said i was on her mind. Ya, you can say that im a little bit handsome, maybe that's why she remembered me. So ya, you know what i mean. Hahaha..I'm just kidding, we're friends ok. Then she ask me to read her sharing. It was all God's plan. 

This was found on her blog sharing, it really strikes me to the heart.

I was reading her story, the one that she ask me to read and WOW! I felt somehow regenerated! To know how a person personally have the heart to share His Love, to be His Love amazes me. Her story touches me. I felt like i want to write again, to let atleast one person out there know that there is a God and He loves us. Ya, how wonderful is that, that God just need something simple to resurrect my blog. A friend and her love story.

I want to glorify Him in my blog! Let His Name be praise FOREVER!!!